I didn't build the habits because I'm disciplined. I built them because I had no other option. In 2018, a manic episode turned into psychosis, and when I came back to work three months later, I had to rebuild everything. Here's what that rebuild looks like — and what it still looks like when life breaks the routine.

Gabe Howard thought about suicide every day for years — and genuinely believed that was just how everyone felt. The mental health speaker and author of Mental Illness Is an Asshole and Other Observations joins Success, Rewritten to talk about what bipolar disorder actually feels like from the inside, why "beating" it is the wrong goal, and what it means to ask about suicide directly.

Before I start interviewing other people about the moments that changed everything, you should know mine. This is the story behind Success, Rewritten — and the manic episode, the layoff, and the decade in between that made it necessary.

In 2018, my treatment team told me my job wasn't compatible with my bipolar disorder diagnosis. I stayed anyway. What happened next changed how I think about work, ambition, and what it actually means to succeed.